I think all of us have said this sentence frequently....maybe mostly girls. 

I did. I said "I am okay" almost everytime, everyday, and right now I feel kinda sick of that (that's why i am writing a post about it)

But am I really 'okay'? HAHAHAHAHAHA no.

You know, there is always a reason why I asked someone, "Are you okay?" and I really really mean that freakin question. But there are these people who came and asked me "Are you okay?" Then I was like "huh what? Uhm yea yea i am okay sure lol" 

Then they were like "ok" 

I mean "wtf?????!!!!"

There should be a reason why they asked me that I am okay or not. I think it's impossible for a person to randomly ask another person if he/she was okay. There must be a reason. But why is it so easy for those people to believe that I am really okay? 

And here is the issue. I know this was like a damn simple problem, but I just want to state what I really feel in this post.

I just don't know how to say the truth about how I really feel to another people. It is really hard. 

I always have this thought, "I will just say that I am okay so it will not be complicated"

But I couldn't hold it anymore. 

You know, the more people think you are always 'okay', the more chances they will get to hurt you. 

Idk, but that was a damn experience of mine.

And "learning to say the truth about how I really feel and not lying about being okay or not" will be written in my 2014 revolutions-list! What's yours? :) 

Hello there. 

So.....you are wasting little time of your life in visiting my blog? Well, thank you.

Hmm yeah, I don't really have any idea why I decided to create a blog. I don't know if I had that talent of writing or taking pictures but I was really inspired by this Singaporean blogger, Naomi Neo. I knew her for the first time when I saw a friend of mine mentioned her in twitter telling she is beautiful and bla bla bla. So I followed her, and I clicked to the website she inserted in her twitter bio. I visited her blog for the first time back in 2010 and it is the first time I had this little crush on a girl because SHE IS SO PRETTY, SHE IS SO AMAZING AND I LOVE HER PERSONALITY 

(before you decided to continue reading my blog, I need to warn you that I have trouble with capslock HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAH

ok you can continue now)

What I like about Naomi Neo is she wrote everything she wanted to write in her blog. She is being herself, she shares what she holds to be true, and her fashion taste? Hipsterly amazing. Does the word "hipsterly" even exist? (am i a genius) Idk but I think that word is perfect. I love how she acts to those haters, she is really brave and I love her because she is just being her<3

Naomi Neo is my inspiration in making a blog. But that is not the only reason.

There were times in my life where I kept on asking myself these questions, "Who should I trust?", "Is there any person who has the same story like I do?", or  "Do I live in someone's dream or is this real?" This made me wondering, "Can I find the answers to those questions by writing in a blog?" Of course it is not that easy, but at least I tried. Doesn't mean I don't trust anyone in my real life but sometimes you just need time for your own world and just ignore the society for a while. I just want to express what I really feel and what I believe to be true. And the only way I have treasured to express myself  is through words. People will be always there to judge, but I hope you will be there smiling to each post I am going to make after this. Good night :)